Keep away from me;
I don't know you anymore.
I'm sick of wasting my breaths on you,
on someone who won't appreciate them.
I still gave you my love
and on last sight
you threw it all away.
Now what am I supposed to do?
Forgive you? and take you back?
No no no, you've got it all wrong.
That's not how it should have ended
but you chose that ending.
And yet you want me to crawl back,
back into your clutches you call
friends.
I know I'm easy
but I'm certainly not stupid.
You know what you've done to me.
You left me with nothing.
I am nothing now.
Just go,
go on ahead and leave me.
But please-
erase the thought from your mind
that I will ever l
Confused echoes,
Resounding in my chaotic mind.
Drips of morphine,
To satisfy the weakness.
Cries and shouts,
That are nonexistent except in my head.
No one can help,
Is a phrase that I say too often.
No one would care,
Are the words seeping through my brain.
No one will understand,
Is how I stay in safety.
I can’t share my troubles,
For even if this word is shared by so many,
I can’t help but think,
I’m the only one who would comprehend.
Tonight we shall feast heavily
Until our stomachs, so very
Gorged, collapse into itself.
Zeal for fine meats, fancy
Gourmet meals fit for kings;
A real treat to indulge with
Nobody judging what we eat.
Stop asking me what's wrong
Because I'm never going to answer.
Stop telling me it gets better
Because I've accepted that it'll never change.
Stop begging me to let you in
Because even then, I'm just going to fake a smile.
You'll find me
drowning out my thoughts
so I can't remember my secrets,
so I can't feel the pain,
so I don't know what caused
this emptiness.
What is happiness?
What is love?
What do I feel if not numb?
Everything's on fire,
save your feelings,
but give me the poison,
cover me in gasoline,
set me out in the flames.
I need the pain,
I need to remember how to feel again.
Save yourself,
but spare me the worry of disaster,
leave me to the fire.
I promise I'll be fine.